on turning 30

turning-30I know I have been gone a while–a very long while. I wish I had a good reason for staying away from this space, but the best I can do is to admit that I needed the time away as I was going through a “thing”. I know I’m being vague but that’s only because even I can’t even begin to explain to you-let alone myself-what it was that was wrong with me, except I felt down all the time and for no good reason whatsoever. I’ve attributed part of this strange slump to turning 30, right before my birthday I started panicking and by panicking I mean, getting really drunk with a friend one night and crying into my beer about how terrified I was about my upcoming birthday and how I hated the thought of leaving my 20s behind. How pathetic is that? I was THAT PATRON, crying IN. A. BAR. Not my best moment. Luckily after that, I started getting my act together and realizing that I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself, pick myself back up and look at the wonderful life I had and start appreciating what I had and what I had accomplished. Essentially, I needed to grow up.

So, I humbly come back to this place with a new perspective and hopefully some maturity. Oh, and guess what? I turned 30 and it wasn’t even half as scary as I expected, in fact, I think I’m gonna really enjoy my 30s.

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7 thoughts on “on turning 30

  1. Norma W. says:

    Happy 30th! You honestly look like you’re in your 20’s! Live it up! Age is just a number!

  2. Monica says:

    Welcome back, Denise! I was thinking about you just the other day. Happy 30th, and Happy Inner Conflict Resolution too. ((hugs))

  3. danamcdowell says:

    So happy to see you on here, so sad to hear you had a rough finish to your 20s. Wishing you all the happiness in the world, dearie!! I can’t tell you how happy I am to see you posting again =)

    • Dana!! It feels great to be back, I felt so out of touch with the blogging world and truth be told, I really missed it. I’m now ready to start catching up on other blogs as well, I see you’ve had some exciting times as of late. ;) xoxo

  4. Alecia says:

    You go lady! I am so happy you are back! I have missed you. :) xo

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